Writing Struggles…

Okay so… I’m struggling heavily with a story I’m trying to write. I have some idea as to what I want the backstory to be on. Like, basically the history of the house the MC and her family end up moving in. It’s an old victorian style house built during the Civil War. It’s near Gettysburg, Pennsylvania. The house is pretty much haunted by this little girl named Margaret or just “Maggie” for short. Her father was a former Civil War soldier who struggled with depression and PTSD as well.

I got the backstory down… but I’m having a hard time developing the rest of the story. For example, how the MC finds “clues” to the history and past of the old house. I have a few tiny ideas as to how, but I’m having a hard time getting them to work. This is one time when I hate having ADHD right now. I can’t seem to focus on what needs to be done without having someone guide me through. ><;

I really want to make this story work. It has a lot of potential, and I also know a lot about the Civil War… thanks to my dad.

So…

I ended up not going to the ren fair today. I just didn’t want to deal with the mental exhaustion that comes with it. I don’t see why I have to go each day, especially when all my mom and I do is see the same joust everyday. I love supporting Max and everything as well, but well… read what I explained in my previous entry. I just hope he’s not upset with me for not going today.

I think one reason I didn’t go was to see what Max would do though. Because as I said, he hasn’t been treating me like I’m special. It makes me really sad, but I guess it’s just kind of natural. I don’t know. I mean, I adore him to pieces because he’s a really nice guy… it’s just that it makes me wonder if I’m just annoying him now. Maybe that’s why I’m not special to him anymore.

Keep in mind that I get paranoid a lot because of my anxiety too. I’m probably just getting too worked up. *shrug* Anyway, I FINALLY FOUND BOOK ONE OF MY KINGDOM KEEPERS SERIES THOUGH!!! My mom found the missing book three on a bookshelf that I had random shit on or something. I didn’t even see it there, but then I must not have been looking very hard either.

I really want to do some writing though. I should be reading my book, but I can’t find a place to do it where I’m not going to be distracted. Plus, I don’t like to go to new places because of routine and sameness. No matter where I seem to go, I’ll probably run into heavy distractions. It’s the joy of having ADHD, amirite? lol